That our family be able to finally have a decent meal together, complete in attendance minus the usual bickering and squabbles. That we survive, even once, a full meal without pushing each others’ buttons. Physically getting everyone at the same table at the same time is already a gargantuan feat. It would be a miracle if we could actually sit in peace and enjoy the feast me, and my mom and dad have prepared.
Finally meet someone either serendipitously by fate’s sinuous selection or capriciously through my own efforts. Someone; not as a mate, or a partner, or a fubu, or any of various titles that define the relation of one to another, but rather someone to bounce my subversions off. Someone I can look forward to spending time with, without the complexities of trying to get into each others’ pants, or the restrictions inscribed in formally dating exclusively (even though reality spells this so blatantly). Someone who would prefer my company, despite of my adiposities, or my nuanced eccentricities, or my darting opining, or my half-broken heart, or my bruised perceptions.
To receive a sincere and unexpected hug. That compressive warmth that says it’s ok, you’re safe, and everything’s going to be fine. In spite of the fact that neither of these insinuations ever hold truth. To achieve that suspension of disbelief in order to quell the lingering leit motif of melancholia.
The alleviation of my parents’ deteriorating health.
For a brother, a better grasp of fiscal reality and the understanding that I too get exhausted sometimes playing breadwinner in a household where my opinion holds little sway against his uncompromising dominion and vicious disposition.
The virtue of empathy and the capacity for compassion and acceptance for those whose days are filled with somnolent distractions against the backdrop of inner turmoil.
Personally, to achieve that consuming conviction that it’s ok and to wake up someday believing this with total abandon and complete admittance. A clarity transcending the undercurrent of disbelief.
And lastly, to set a bounded heart free.
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:) sana matupad mga wishes mo :)
@thecuriouscat Thanks. Ditto. :)
happy new year.... sana nga matupad ang mga wishes mo and more.... :)
truthful and practical but definitely a wonderful realization that regardless of how old we are, we can still dream and make wishes.
@Yj Thanks. I hope your dearest wishes in the coming year come true as well. Salamat at nagawi ka dito.
@wanderingcommuter I agree. That in spite of the complexities of adult life, when you ponder long enough the simple things are always those that matter most. Thanks for visiting. First time mo atang nag-comment ser.
kahit via this post lang, let me grant you one of your wishes.
*hugs*
Happy New Year.
And thanks for visiting my home. =)
@engel Thanks. It means a lot.
Sorry I was on hiatus for a while, the next thing I know you've closed down. Sayang. But then again, things when served its purpose loses its necessity. Thus becoming relics and memoirs, documentation of a point in time.
happy new year red!
you're a hopeless romantic pala with regards to your 2nd wish. a thinking and very intelligent hopeless romantic. ;) i kid, i kid.
well, hopefully, 2010 would bring us all new opportunities to grow and prosper and fall in love. :)
hugs red. us bears give the best ones :) happy new year. :)
@Maxwell5587 Why, thank you sir. Your not so bad yourself. Intellect includes weaving the profound to appear mundane, and your cinematic critiques attest to this capacity of yours. In fact, I veer away from doing reviews as I know you'd do a far more effective job at it. No kidding. Oh, and still looking forward to your take on the upcoming Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland.
I do hope that 2010 brings in a lot of opportunities. To evolve, to rediscover and to ascend.
@jamie da vinci Thanks Jamie! I appreciate it. Happy new year to you as well. I don't think your a bear though. Your too fit to be one. Maybe a bear at heart?
By the way, thanks for visiting. :)
This the best wishlist I have read for this year. And that's coming from somebody who doesn't have one. :)
@Victor Gregor Why, thank you Victor. Sometimes, when we look hard enough, we realize that the things that matter are those money can't buy. It never was.
Materiality only seems to suspend the yearning for genuine connections, in the absence of what we really find meaningful.
whoah. this is good. evoked mixed feelings in me - a yin and a yang, sadness and happiness at the same time.
maxwell said you are a hopeless romantic in your second wish, i think you are hopeless romantic in everything! hehehe. ;-)
but, i do hope you get what you wished for. 2010 has 365 days after all. =) kayang kaya yan!
@Teban Thanks! It was an underlying theme in this entry. The duality of our experience. Romanticists tend to dwell on the emotionality of situations. We thrive on the tart and bitter, the sweet and sultry. We find kaleidoscopes of colors where light has come to pass. I believe everyone is a romantic, in varying degrees. Some just choose to be verbose about it.
The first wish, I didn't get. But I did get the third one. :)
this is really nice. i sincerely hope you get all the things that you wished for. based on what i read, you seem like a really nice guy. i'm sure the big guy up there wouldn't mind. :D
@Nyl Thanks! I hope so too, it's been a long time waiting. And I'm getting a bit tired. :)
the fatigue is there to remind us it's worth it. otherwise, what's the point right. :D
siguro sa dami ng nagwiwish sayo, feel ko magkakatotoo talaga yan! hehe
@Nyl Amen to that! Sana nga magkatotoo. Yung first wish ko kasi di na natupad eh. Although I did get the third one. But then again, we can't always have everything, and when we don't, something better is probably in the pipelines of fate's meandering liaisons.
"something better is probably in the pipelines of fate's meandering liaisons."
we share this one. it's the only thing that's keeping me alive. *sigh*
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