RED IS THE NEW BLACK

Avatarrandom rantings and rabid retorts of a socially-retarded, decidedly high-strung, renewed romantic

a superlative day (and night)


A deadline met. Bills paid in advance. Lunch-out with colleagues. A successful introductory meeting with clients. A logbook finally signed. Spending time with le partenaire de mes rêves.  New friendships. An unexpected gift. Renewed ties. An honored introduction. Post-Christmas festive mood. Makati City after work hours. The unplanned stroll at the beloved park. Cold milk tea on a warm December night.  
It has been (and continues to be) such a wonderful year. Here's to an even more wonderful one ahead. 
Bonne Année, et à votre santé!

early december delight

Beneath the surprisingly arid blanket of an early December evening, amidst the jolly frolicking of Christmas party-goers, I sat exhausted upon the uncomfortable edge of a low-profile poly-vinyl wicker-backed chair in one of the comparatively less-frequented cafes at Makati. Books in tow, sprawled across a wood-veneered composite table laminated in deep cherry lacquer, I piled my readings face-up to assess that evening’s objectives.

for the missed




We hold on to the fleeting present, sparse and amorphous like
Falling, trickling, seeping sand between
the loose fingers of consciousness
Losing, sublimating into the ether of memory, the forgotten
Lint of a weathered past

We fear frail indistinct fragments, cracked, crackled, coarse, cluttered
The tip-tapping, tick-tocking, clink-clanking hush of haunting
Muddled filaments lined with meaning that refuses
To disentangle from the macramé of recollections

Surly esoteric moments that used to
Move and meander our reality
Now miniscule footnotes buttressed against the weight of past
Lovers, lives, learning, longing

So we seek permanence, to deny our mortality
We write, and build, and think, and express
Creating manifestations that reflect
an imagined distinction, delicate translations
Borne of a hunger for acknowledgement, admission,
and acceptance as contrarian

But man’s immortality lies upon the intangible
For objects, like man, weathers, withers, wilts, and is wanting
It is in the seed we plant among our brothers,
Bits of ourselves broken apart, shared, imbibed, dissolved, ingested

Parts of our parts, becoming parts of theirs
Enriching, enlightening, educating,
Forming, deforming, informing
In that hope that when we pass, we surpass

Not in tangible, impermeable, impenetrable objects detached
From the flesh of our being, the nectar of our psyche;
But as missed, unforgotten advocates of humanity
Adding to the richness of culture and society, as our predecessors have.




[A blitzkrieg-exercise done in observance of All Soul's Day, this was written within the span of 15 minutes, a rather mundane attempt of encapsulating the immediacy and fleeting nature of memory, and the overwhelming recidivist effects of grief. May we all never forget, and never be forgotten.]

Original image from here.

the countdown begins



The PRC (Professional Regulation Commission) has finally released their board examination schedules for the 2013 term. Now, the eventuality and immediacy of the licensure exam is more palpable and real. From here on, it becomes an inimitable countdown to a necessary deadline. The date is January 25 and 27 (Friday and Sunday) 2013.

in chaos, clarity




















Underneath the Atlas of immediate expectations,
Of pending papers, incumbent examinations,
Bearing and bursting tattered seams of discipline,
Tick-tocking verily, a veritable exhaustive end.

mutatis mutandis



A subtle change is happening. I feel it most during those incoherent hours between sleep and wakefulness, vast and vacuous moments of apathy to the world that pepper and interject my days, and sometimes nights. They mingle and trickle beneath the seemingly bland normalcy (if, one could imprecisely classify it as such). It may be a harbinger of something more pervasive, invasive and assertive that has yet to find fruition. So far, this paradigm shift is neither malevolent nor malignant, at least to my knowledge.

fulcrum




If the recent weather conditions could be summarily taken as a portent, the upcoming start of my reviews this week would be nothing less than challenging. I wish I could brush off this foreboding sense of dismay and curdling anxiety, but the fact remains that the review center I opted to enrol in is located at an area renowned for incessant flooding and the persistent presence of criminal activity. Despite the fact that it is in close proximity to one of the most prestigious universities in the country; which I surmise is also a factor why pickpockets, hold-uppers and various sorts of malevolent intent plague the locale, it is also quite remote from where I hold office.

ad multos annos




ephemeraladj.
I was coming back from the bathroom. You had just checked your email. I was walking to bed, but you intercepted me, kissed me, then clasped my left hand in your right hand and put your left hand on my back. We started slow-dancing. No music, just nighttime. You leaned your head into mine and I leaned my head into yours. Dancing cheek to cheek. Revolving slowly, eyes closed, heartbeat measure, nature’s hum. It lasted the length of an old song, and then we stopped, kissed, and the world resumed. 
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p. 84 of The Lover’s Dictionary (A Novel) by David Levithan. 2011, Picador. Farrar, Straus & Giroux. NY.

quotidian quote XVIII


"Kinetic Rain" Changi Airport Singapore from ART+COM on Vimeo.

“The chaos brought on by political turmoil, mobility, the population explosion, and by the tremendous impact of the machine, demands that man – if he is to retain his sanity – must have a serene environment. But with serenity we must have delight – the delight of interesting silhouettes of water, the play of variety of outdoor and indoor experience. But serenity, the physical manifestation of the belief that man can live in quiet dignity, must unify the whole.”
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Minoru Yamasaki on providing sanctuaries in response to today's feverish pace and framing man happily in his environment

i do not miss you



I do not miss you.

48 after 29




“Age is strictly a case of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter.”
- Jack Benny


Last Monday I celebrated my 29th birthday. Of course, the de facto question would be how it feels to be twenty nine. I could respond with a complicated appraisal, but I’ve only been twenty nine for about two days. So expectedly, it would be a hasty generalization/ assessment if I pursue such an exposition.

Most would expect a rather lengthy post from me, replete with all manners of arcane and obscure references. Or an ardently obsessive outpouring; accomplished with enumerated and itemized interjections, gerunds and digressions. I would have actually, out of habit, but for now I think candor would suffice.

identifying independence


The question of independence is both subjective and objective; it is, in fact, contrarian. In as much as one could argue sovereignty, political and social constructs inclusive, being evidence to the establishment of the case of independence and its palpable manifestation to our reality, our sense of either of these are not as fully developed or realized as some may surmise.

public service announcement - fashion writing


Are you knowledgeable in the clothing arts? Does your sense of style transcend your pecuniary means? Do you command a comprehension of fashion with a competency beyond those of your peers and relations? Are you self-aware of trends, and satisfactorily sound when choosing your looks?

Do you love to write? Do you have the journalistic credibility and reportorial hunger to tell a story with both restraint and abandon? Do you seek the limelight that only being published can afford? Do you find writing both as an expression of life, and a creative description of the aspirational qualities of it?

to the distraught dilletante


Ira Glass on Storytelling from David Shiyang Liu on Vimeo.

To all jaded and disillusioned, to the downtrodden and heartbroken, to the fallen and beaten.

To those whose pain has been used to exact the elixir of another’s craft, stolen and stillborn amidst a pigeonholed public mesmerized by the litany of the perpetrators. To those who have given so much, only to realize that they still fall short in the end. To the perplexed and perturbed, purgatorial spirits who seek meaning in the wasteland of our reality, the collapsing consciousness of a life meant to be lived but remaining unrealized.

sky's the limit


We’ve all dreamt of flight. Man’s pedestrian and ambulant fate is to gaze upon the heavens, in awe, disbelief, and yearning, for an opportunity to be one with its zephyr skies. That divine and foreign experience of flight is one of man’s copious holy grails, as he walks downtrodden and exhausted upon the dirt of this earth. The burden of our planar banishment seems mundane and lackluster, in comparison to the expanse of aerial space above, and beyond us. There is something transcendent in flight, in how man, his weighted existence, can achieve the miracle of levitation with the expertly maneuvering of a multi-ton contraption. It seems unreal for him to fly, being a fragile bag of bones and flesh. And yet, he can, and does. 

to oliver


"You are my homecoming. When I'm with you and we're well together, there is nothing more that I want. You make me like who I am, who I become when you're with me, Oliver. If there's any truth in the world, it lies when I'm with you..."
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Elio, as spoken to Oliver
Call Me by Your Name, by André Aciman
2007 Picador ® Published by Farrar, Straus and Giroux

en route



The landscape of geige, sprawling and derelict, of pock-marked outlines lineated with age, bunkers and warehouses, hangars and Quonset huts, parade abandoned and forgotten in the passing of time. Like burlap and kraft upon emptying its contents, they sway vacuous in the silence that lulls the deep evening. I see their silhouettes crisp against the glow of lady la luna, veiled in the dank mists descendant from Siberia. They are my brethren, once titans that dotted the landscape of industry, of progress, of movement, now laid to waste by their inescapable oblivion. Barren, motionless, and timid against a time that refuses to look back, contemplative on their forsaken state, of various degrees of disarray, disrepair, squalor and destitute dereliction.

mabuhay marketing



The effectiveness of a marketing campaign is not evidenced by how in-your-face and conspicuous it is, but by its ability to elicit an emotional response from its intended audience. Memory and longevity is always rooted on emotional response, and employing an approach that affords this cross-pollination between audience and the intent of the message makes for a more successful advertising strategy.

the end is the beginning


Forgive my marked lack of eloquence  in this circumstance. I find myself at a figurative standstill as I look back, being pleasantly overwhelmed, at the year that was, and that came to an unsurreptitious close. I may have been flagrant in the calumny of all things crass and kitschy, often too indignant and swift to contest, and for that reason, must have been the unintended cause for my inacuity on exploring something as ubiquitous and pedestrian as an annual conclusion. For to even attempt to condense, distill, nomenclate, classify, and order a whole year into an entry is just as, in my opinion, foolhardy and delusional as me foregoing caffeine. So I shan't.

To be more precise, there is a n enuresian thirst to illustrate the plethora of vertiginous emotional somersaulting I encountered in the  year that was, ungraspable by the grit and savoy of prose. Now, to find a place to begin is just as daunting as finding the appropriate flourish by which to conclude. Since my writing methodology lacks neither order, pattern, rhythm, regularity, discipline, nor sometimes sense, thus method being inaccurate as a descriptor at all, to examine with unceremonious procession across my entries would be a disservice and blunt oversight on momentous moments that have occurred, and were left undocumented, whether of my own volition or circumstantial dispositions.