Exactly a month from now, I will be officially unemployed.
The repercussions are overwhelming at the moment, and my options are pretty much close to nil. The novel Things Fall Apart comes to mind. The firm that I am currently working for will most probably be folding, as no new projects are coming in. Which means, most of the staff here have been loitering and gossiping among themselves for the past couple of months. The projects that I'm currently handling are the last ones the firm has. Beyond this, when these projects are done, so is the firm.
Today, the countdown begins.
In two weeks, ties will be broken. And, had things gone differently, alliances would have been made. But it seems I was living a dream, the distorted reality of an idealist. But I guess it makes sense after all that has happened, the universe does conspire to give you what you expect. Not want, not need, but expect. I have fate on the universe though, other people not so much.
In three weeks, my reserves would have gone kaput. I may have to let go of the apartment at Mandaluyong. Life will definitely change for me. And this Christmas, will be the most trying and lonesome one I'll have.
I've never been unemployed in my life. Ever.
I've worked for numerous firms, and various industries, but there hasn't been a point in which I was, quite literally, out of work.
Maybe fate does have better plans for me. Maybe right now, its just harder to see the silver lining across the horizon. Maybe my own tears are clouding my vision. While others frolic in anticipation of blossoming narratives, and yuletide dreams, the curtains are being drawn in for this lonesome thespian.
Maybe, I realized, is such a sad word.
As my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost,
wake me up when September ends.
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Wake Me Up When September Ends
Greenday
2005 American Idiot
Billie Joe Armstrong
Image from here.
15 redmarks:
you are not the only one who has been in that phase...
just like them, you will find new one.
@Moi Sana nga. Salamat.
the song simply concluded your post like a beauty queen in her high heels.
cheers!
@Yas Jayson Hehe.
don't lose hope. every cloud has a silver lining.
@PILYO Salamat kaibigan.
you can probably find another one very soon, i'm pretty sure you are applying in other firms right now. don't lose hope..:)
you'll survive. we always will, yes?
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the thing is, you caught me with this line: "I have faith on the universe though, other people not so much."
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can i say me as well?
@soltero I am. Thanks bro. It's just not a good time, usually its freeze-hiring on the fourth quarter, especially in the design industry.
@Désolé Boy That's the plan. Yes, you may. Actually there's a line in there that really made an important point, besides the one you mentioned. Its veracity is so immense and consistent.
It seems to me that you are an intelligent person. You'll get through it all. ;-)
@Ms. Chuniverse Thanks. Positivism should be my new mantra. :)
"I have faith on the universe though, other people not so much."
Yet what is the universe, but merely people and a few bits of rocks and gas?
@VICTOR Or one can conversely argue that people are but bits and pieces of the same universe, borne out of the same stardust.
hindi nawawalan ng market ang mga matatalinong tao :D aja aja fighting!
@mikel Why, thank you. Yeah, let's keep the fight! :)
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